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I don't know where to go; black and white are the only things I see
every option feels wrong, guess there isn't an easy choice for me
not for me

to the left I hear bombs; falling down from above like snow
exploding in slow motion; feels kinda cold but in a different way
but I shut my eyes and think

weren't you the one who picked me up off the ground when I died
when I drowned in the river of tears I cried
yeah, I know you; you might not believe me
but friends will do that from time to time
just left me lift up your soul; I remember when you lifted mine

the fire dies into smoke; I need a way to get up out of this place
but something's gripping my throat and wispy fingers catch me in their embrace

I think you threw me a rope; but was it a lifeline or a noose?
why should I choose to trust you?
feeling all alone in a familiar place


from Sad Bastard Songs, released October 28, 2014
Mike Frederick Ziethlow: mixing, mastering, badassering



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Chris Mendoza is a performing songwriter based in the Bay Area, CA.

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